19 years of courage

19 years old and has seen more of the world than most
cocaine, alcohol, homelessness

street person
suicide attempts and powerful poisons
Saw a young man more courageous than I could understand

6 months off narcotics
1 month off the ganga
I want to make sure he goes farther
gets stronger
it gets harder

Dear god, I pray that you provide a path
text messages, phone calls and jokes to make us laugh

I know tools that can turn us from fools to masters
from derelicts, to people turned healthy from being sick
answers lie in the correction, its the truth to cure obsession

Addiction is the 2nd most powerful conception after connection
baffling and cunning
19 years of courage and lets keep going.

Gratitude

I’m Grateful for being an Addict
The best thing that could have happened is the tragic
The fall from grace to shame and blame
a tall order I couldn’t tame
control that wouldn’t hear its name

gratitude for my new attitude
to have found the cost of being lost
the long longing for a latitude

For clarity there must be confusion
for doubt there must be faith
climbing out of the depths of pain and hate
to find the love and passion of not needing to escape

without gratitude I wouldn’t have a family
soaking in the abyss of missing ecstasy
that constant reaching, only to be taught exhaustion

Gratitude now fires up my engine
synonymous with purpose
anonymous donations of a purchase
it teaches stillness to the nervous
volunteering it’s time to be of service
worthwhile for the feeling of being worthless

You can touch the naked body of your dreams
as life’s pain does not need to be as it seems
the mirror of your mind doesn’t need cleaning
there is no mirror so dust cannot be collecting