give everything first

The morning brings urgency of movement

This urgency is fueled by awareness of the finite.
Life’s limitation that there will only be a certain number of mornings.
Celebrating this privilege, he lights an incense.
Reflecting on this opportunity, he prays to be of service; to serve the day
Responsibility is the purpose for his early mornings

to give everything first

If by the end of the night you do not feel exhaustion
perhaps you need rise earlier to the urgency of finitude

God’s voice can be heard in the silence
Walk the streets in the early morning and listen to his presence

The urgency of the present
the dedication of your sacrifice
to give everything first

waiting patiently

This world awaits your new self

It awaits for you to find that which you already have

When you awaken, your joys would not seem as great as your suffering
realizing that they both were necessary for the path to be formed of your journey

listen to the divine patience and compassion of silence
It calls to you and your inner voice
this emotional immaturity cries for love out of natural selfishness

feed this child the selfless compassion you would share with a struggling friend

This world awaits your new self
This world will wait patiently

Always Get Back Up

Every failure
is another chance to learn success
I have never met a battle that could not be met
within reason

The hardest battle is from within
nothing in my environment could keep up
with my expectations
dive into frustrations

I lost focus getting too focused on one thing
spread love, keep time
wake early, sleep early
take care of the body

3 miles at top speed
leaves me relaxed and relieved

30 mins of meditation
to clear clutter for concentration

These daily activities
of created energy
are the paths to realizing identity
clinging to the past or hoping for the future
while forgetting this present moment
is an omen of unused potential

find your obstacle
try as many times as you can to go through
when knocked down
always get back up

May there be peace and love and perfection throughout all creation

“I believe in God”
“God believes in me”

Words spoken in the mind during a meditation retreat.

“This is my reality”
“This is my ultimate reality”
“I have compassion for my ultimate reality”

Beliefs instilled deep within the roots of my veins

“This is happiness”
“Enjoy this moment”
“Nothing is more or less important than right now”

Values created through repetition
Learning of a new order and form

“Thank you for today”
“I am grateful”
“I am grateful for this, right now”

Gentle smiles of flickering light
straightened posture
Awaiting the gift of insight
while removing expectations

The silence and stillness and quiet
transforms

I found something more powerful than power,
compassion

Before the alarm – The daily regimen

Before the alarm at 3:50
I make the first decision to get up and get ready
pray to God I have the energy
pray for friends, family and society
make coffee
read pages 86-88 in the Big Book, upon awakening

Water the plants
Go online to manage the plans and check in with my clan
start the poetry slam practice
should be figuring out delivery and memory
but I only want creative brainstorming for breakfast
Fast for the morning and the late evening
Gotta stay fast and quick
used to use the bic pen
now the keyboard is my best friend
he’s more slick, I think, than the ink

the gym opens at 5, leave by 4:45
stretch and then 5 miles makes me feel high
back at home, shower and meditation
my dome gets power from letting go of frustration
and sinking into blinking concentration
fleeting as the thoughts that get caught in respiration

Reading of recovery, of psychology of philosophy
of anything that sets the mind free
flavored with possible journaling

lastly the prep of what is to come
where will direction come from?
how will challenges be approached?
can today be the best that I could invoke?

Ready for work,
my 9-5 starts at 8, after 4 hours of prep
Yep, escaping is no longer interesting
I’d rather get deep into relating and connecting
there is no where to run and no where to hide
Coming alive, finding stride, picking up others when going by